Keeping Hobbies Consistent

I fucking hate the concept that a hobby isn’t considered a ‘real hobby’ unless you are actively pushing all your energy and free time into it. From my understanding, hobbies are supposed to be something that brings you joy, not something that feels soul sucking every time you fail to create or partake in aforementioned hobby. We already have to work for a living, so why do we stress ourselves out for not doing ‘the thing’?

I’ve had several hobbies that I’ve impulsively started and gave up on soon after. Whether that was because I got bored or other things took priority at the time, they never stuck. This has always been something I’ve beaten myself up about even though being creative in one of the hardest times of my life is the least of my problems. Maybe I used it as an excuse to ignore the bigger issues in my life. If I can’t fix the big problems I might as well dig myself out for the little ones. At this risk of monologuing you gentle readers into a depressive episode, I’ll get to the point.

Hobbies are supposed to be an outlet for our everyday frustrations. Something that gives us hope and excitement. I’m sure many neuro-spicy souls can relate to the fact that keeping your focus on one thing for an extended period of time, doesn’t come naturally to us. Some of the hobbies I've picked up over the years include, painting, reading, sewing and embroidery. Can safely say I haven't touched these hobbies in at least three months. Which isn't suprising when I remind myself I work five days a week, live in a small flat with a pet that loves to destroy my shit for attention, and regularly experience burnout.

Which brings me to my current hyper-fixation, this blog. Writing has never been something I considered myself good. I assume it has to do with the fact people found it 'difficult' to understand me when I spoke growing up. Often I've been told that my words don't make sense. Naturally I assumed anything I came up with creatively doesn't make sense. How wrong they were. Coherent and conformative ways of thinking is overrated. I have learnt to adapt to my chaotic way of thinking, which manifested into a healthier relationship with what I spend my free time doing.

Don't push yourself to create, have a rest and do it when it comes naturally.